A form of light

I dream sometimes, when I'm sleeping, that there is someone watching me.  Who is this mysterious person? 
I think sometimes, when I am awake, that someone is watching my every movement.  Why is this feeling always upon me? 
I read some things on the interwebs sometimes, and I hear some things on the television set, and I read some things in a book, and I hear some things that people have said.  It makes me think that I know who is watching me.
I meditate sometimes and I am startled when upon opening my eyes, there is that person, staring at me.
I get angry sometimes and I sometimes want to cry.  I meditate to become at ease and instead there is this encroaching terror inside my head.
This form, this being, this so called bringer of light....
Tears into my heart and pulls out the darkness...wraps me in its cold grip.  Seems strange that the light bearer would bring me darkness, but
haven't you noticed? I'm sure you have....shadows are created by the light....darkness could not exist without the light, just as light can not be without the dark
maybe I am wrong, oh how I hope that I am...
but I have noticed, that sometimes, my strongest intuition is right, most of the times, about 99.infinity % of the times.
either that or I seriously need to be comitted.