What is this feeling?

Somehow I cannot decide

Should I feel sadness or should I feel pride?

For the darkness that I have set upon you

Was this not my one sole purpose?

To make my lips the ones you want to kiss...

To make your hands yearn for a place at my hips...

Was this not what I dreamed of all along?

Either way my heart is torn

Between eternal bliss and perpetual scorn

For the joy I get from your pain

The fire I see inside your eyes

Oh, even though I have seen it so many times...

That gleaming blaze makes my thoughts go wild

And for your touch I crave

You hate me,

You love me.

A ‘not' to the end of either would be false

But do not despair...It was not your fault

I set out to make you my own

Who knew how these feelings would grow

Then change and twist our smiles to tears

Pulling our hearts into never ending fear

All I wish for you now...

Not happiness nor sadness...

Not sanity nor madness...

All I wish for you now,

My heart, my dear, my dreams, my desire...

All I wish for you now is peace.

;P